Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in pigeon_predator's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
3:28 pm	im haveing a bit of a problem with life right now im going to write about it she said dont worry baby everything will be just fine she said no nightmares hunny ill stay the night she put my head on her shoulder she said it was ok to cry she taught me to be older thoughts and memories subside and tonight ill drink it all away tonight ill forget about the pain tonight ill close my eyes and pretend that everythings alright i stumble to my bed empty thoughts running through my head ill never trust anything she says to myself i will always be dead (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 9th, 2005
4:03 am	wow im suprised people still have me on here i thought everyone would take me off there friends list and forget about me still traveling not much to say here no one really replys anyway when i do have something to say (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
8:44 am	dear journal do you know when you become a looser a true lowlife when youve made so many mistakes in this life that you become a shadow of your former self do you know at what point it really becomes obvious when your father lies to you about what hes doing so he and his friends dont have to be around you ok wheres the gun becuase if i could use one right now i would im nothing but a shadow im stuck in the past looking in on myself being happy at one time in my life it plays like a movie over and over again in my head i guess some people were not ment to be free some people our held prisoners by themselves im chokeing on my own blood im dieing faster each day im no longer liveing and my heart beats slower each time i breathe i wonder if i should really do it this time really go for it this isnt a life this is just a soul lost in a wasteland trying to find there way home i am crying right now and even know i can barley see the screen i hope to god someday i can read it becuase when im better ill remember all of this (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
6:14 am	I want to hold you But every time I try Something keeps you Out of reach I want to love you But every time I try Something keeps Love away And I can feel it So love me right now Though it won't last Girl don't make me try ‘Cause I'll lose you forever Every time Every time And every time I try To put our love out Like a fire You keep me in your reach And every time I try To throw away my desire You hold me So close And I can feel it So love me right now Though it won't last Girl don't make me try ‘Cause I'll lose you forever Every time Every time Our Love Is Gonna Live Forever Tonight's the night That we're alone So baby turn the lights down low Girl our love is gonna live Forever All it took was just One kiss You're the one I'm gonna miss Girl our love is gonna live Forever Soon we will be far apart But girl you've gone and Touched my heart And tomorrow I'm gonna love you Just like I do today Today (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
3:17 am	im close to the edge tonight im so scared im shakeing i want to go back to the hospital it was safe there no one bothered me i was nothing to anyone and no one existed to me i was comfortably numb (Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
3:42 am	i look at my reflection scared and out of touch distant from this universe this universe i hate so much i look in to my soul self hatred enters my viens i am starting to feel cold as daytime remains people can see me i am no longer wearing a mask i let down my gaurd i grew up to fast i held out my hand i opened my eyes i cant see that well in to the night waiting for connection waiting for someones touch i gathered an infection that connected with dust i flew through the air like a leave in the wind im sure no one cares that this is the end i go back to my bed i stay for awhile thoughts wrestleing in my head i feel like a child i fall asleep no ones around i call for my mommy and she hudled me off the ground and we laughed for awhile we cheered and we sang ill never forget the smile on your face my poetry screams somebody please hear me and then its voice is lost in a silent body language holocoust that speaks volumes of words that are carefully whispered through the air and served to the ones we consider dear behind our backs and laughter fills the cracks of these here walls makeing it impossible to escape on days end breathing heavily from the signals you send dodgeing bullets of feelings you display on that cold and empty mat you call a face i spoke to your other side today he said he was selling you out couldent stand what you were about couldent bare to look at your face and so i myself break the glass that bites my ass and stares me straight in the face i am breathing and bleeding heavily exhuasted running from all sides of me which attack like banchees on crack that never sleep they never die becuase i am 3 inside 1 delivers cool and calm can grasp every angle every place your comeing from 2 doesent know how to react he thinks with his palms and falls flat on his ass and 3 has fallen so far below that he only exists to societys cold and when these 3 of me colaberate get together and party i am one again singing to you the same old song that i exhale from my mouth and tattoo on my arms hopeing that somebody hears or sees the poetry that i scream (Comment on this)
Friday, June 10th, 2005
12:59 am	so kids i think ill be settleing down with this journal i have seen many of journals and this one will be the last i dont have much to write but my last journal was papa_midnight feel free to add or not add me i guess i could break this new journal in with a survey Your real name: todd Age: 20 Height: 5'11 Natural hair colour: brown Eye colour: blue Skin color: white Glasses/contacts?: Glasses Piercings: lips ears tongue nose Tattoos: 7 of them Braces: nada Mannerisms: ? Other distinctive markings: ? FAVOURITE Colour: earth tones dark colors Band: aqualung Video game:rainbow six 3 black arrow Movie: closer Book: bang goes the shotgun to the head Food: italian sausage with sauce Game on a cell phone: pong 3d CD: ludacris Flower: rose Scent: hmm.. axe Animal: water dragon Comic book: island Cereal: frosted checks Website: this one Cartoon: aqua teen hunger force DO YOU Play an instrument?: Yes Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: yes Like to sing?: yes Have a job?: kinda Have a cell phone?: yeah Like to play sports?: somewhat Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:nope Have a crush on someone?:do you have a crush on someone mister survey man? Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: nope Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: Nope Have any special talents/skills?: writeing Exercise daily?: kinda Like school?: Nah. CAN YOU Sing the alphabet backwards?: no Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: yep Speak any other languages?: 2 others Go a day without food?: yes Remember your dreams: yes Read music, not just tabs?: yep Roll your tongue?: yep Eat a whole pizza?: yep HAVE YOU EVER Won something in the lottery?: yes Snuck out of the house?: yep Lied to get out of trouble?: yep Had a computer crash?: yep >.< Gotten lost in your city?: yes Seen a shooting star?: nope Been to any other countries?:yes Had a serious surgery?:yes Stolen something important to someone else?:no Solved a rubiks cube?: yeah Gone out in public in your pajamas?: yes Cried over a girl?: yeah Cried over a boy?:no Kissed a random stranger?:yes Hugged a random stranger?:yes Been in a fist fight?:no Been arrested?:yes Done drugs?:yes Had alcohol?: yeah Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: soda Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: yeah Sneaked into the opposite sex's bathroom?: yeah Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: Yeah. >.> Swore at your parents?: accidentally. Kicked a guy where it hurts?:yes Been to a casino?: yeah Ran over an animal and killed it?: no, thank goodness Broken a bone?: yes Gotten stitches?: yes Had a water balloon fight in winter?: yes Made homemade muffins?: yes Bitten someone?: no Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: yeah Burped in someone’s face?: no WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU Brushed your teeth: this morn Cried: yesterday Went to the bathroom:a second ago Saw a movie in a theatre: a couple of hours ago Read a book: uhmm monday Had a snow day: uhmm cant remember Had a party: two weekends ago Went to a doctor: a month ago Tripped in front of someone: few days ago Went to the grocery store: yesterday Got sick: dont remember Got cursed: dunno Called someone: a few hours ago DO YOU PREFER Fruit/vegetables: fruit Black/white: black Lights on/lights off: off TV/movie: movie Body spray/lotion: body spray Cash/cheque: cash, Pillows/blankets: blankets Headache/stomach ache: stomach Paint/charcoal: charcoal Chinese food/Mexican food:mexican Summer/winter: winter Snow/rain: rain Fog/misty: fog Rock/rap: both Meat/vegetarian: meat Chocolate/vanilla: both Sprinkles/icing: icing Cake/pie: pie Strawberries/blueberries: strawberries! Ocean/swimming pool:ocean Cookies/muffins: cookies Wallet/pocket: wallet Window/door: window Charles Chaplin/Chespirito: chaplin Pink/purple: purple Cat/dog: dog Long sleeve/short sleeve: short Pants/shorts: pants Winter break/spring break:winter Spring/autumn: autumn Clouds/clear sky: clouds Moon/mars: mars Questions/Answers: answers War/Peace peace LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP Do you believe in love?: yes What's the most important kind of love for you?: mutual Have you ever been in love?:yes Been close to love?: yeah If you have, with who?: uhmmm long story Ever confessed your feelings to the one you loved?:yes Really badly so that it actually hurts and you cry at night?: yes Are you in a relationship?: no If so, for how long?: no Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:i dont know What is your idea of the best date?:simple the movies ethier that or backpack through europe or roadtrip What was your first kiss like?: wierd How old were you when you got your first kiss?: 4 Do you think love is worth nothing?: is it priceless yes if you mean something else i dont know Best experience you’ve ever had with the opposite sex:long story If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?: yes Have you ever been dumped?:to many times Have you ever dumped someone?:no I... Am: a shadow Want: love Need: love Love: not telling Hate: myself Feel: tired Did: alot of work today Miss:lisa Am annoyed by:people who ignore me Would rather: sleep Am tired of: people Will always: care about my mom MISCELLANEOUS What is your favourite genre of music?: elevator music What time is it now?: 134 am How much money do you have right now?:dont know Are you hungry right now?: YES What are you doing right now?: doing this obviously Do you like parades?: yeah Do you like the moon?: yeah What are you going to do when you're done with this?: i dont know If you could have any magical power what would it be?: flying DO YOU THINK YOU ARE Funny?: yeah Cool?: no Pretty?: no Sarcastic?: y'think? Lazy?: yeah Hyper?: yeah Friendly?: I guess Evil?: yeah Unforgettable?: I dunno... Smart?: no Strong?: Mebe Talented?: yes Dorky?: yes WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD High: weed Lonely: me Pen: poetry Flower: girl Window: life Psycho: me Brain freeze: me Strange: me Sassy: some girls Suffering: me Art: salvador dalli WOULD YOU EVER Sky dive?: yeah Run away?: yeah Curse at a teacher?: yes Not take a shower for a week?: no Ask someone out?: yeah Unscrew your cellphone too see what's inside?: I do that to fix it Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:not anymore Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: yeah Go scuba diving?: yeah Write a book?: yeah Assemble a computer?:yeah Become a rock star?:yeah Have a long-distance relationship?: yeah Marry someone you don't know?:no LAST QUESTIONS ( FINALLY ) - ARRGHHHH... What kind of computer do you have?: crap What grade/level of studies are you in? none Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: no How many posters do you have in your room?:12 Who else should take this quiz?:whoever (1 Comment |Comment on this)